Harvest Apple

I cannot just sit back and watch my whole world disappear.

"I will miss you," the card read. Even though it was first thing in the morning, it made me so sad today. There does not have to be a goodbye. That is what I don't understand. If you make the effort, I make the effort. Graduation is in seven months. I don't want to hear goodbye's all throughout the eighth. I will miss you, too. But please, don't give me a need to miss!

After all we've been through? Not a thought? Never again? What about chances?

I've applied to four colleges, and all are roughly 2-3 hours away from my current place of residence. For some reason, I have zero interest in furthering my education where I am. I feel like I want to branch out, but not so far that I am unreachable. I would never do that. So why is it being done to me?

I had hopes for clarity and closeness, not doubt and distance.

I am here for you all. I wish you all could be there for me. Don't you want to share the experiences with me? I only look forward to sharing them with you! The aspect that makes me sad is that I feel I am already cut from the invite.

No matter what I do, is it never going to help?

Some of my dreams are gone, but my hope is not. The hope that new dreams will take their place.

The twist is, that I barely do anything. I mean, how can I expect something from nothing? I am just worried that if I show action, it will be disregarded.

I guess I just don't want to lose touch with home base.

I am not going anywhere! I want to be right where you all are. Truly and completely. I can be so much better if given the chance. I am hiding most of the time though, but I do want to be seen. Please don't forget.

Well, I know that my blogs have been REALLY confusing lately. In general, I've been fine for the most part. School has been nice, and life has been fun. There are just some issues that I couldn't possibly communicate that bug me a tiny bit. Okay, maybe more than a tiny bit, but enough of a bit. :P I feel like too many aspects of my life have changed already! I wasn't prepared for as many changes so early. I was trying to prepare myself for the changes post- graduation, which honestly, are hard enough. But that is just one of the things though, right there. Give me one solid reason why the changes cannot be GOOD changes. Why do there have to be some bad ones? Will the bad ones ever become good? It is hard to tell.

I feel so much older these days, too. Everyday I look at all the younger students at school, and I just think "wow." I think of when I was that age or in that grade. I think to myself, "Most of the things they are worried about are empty." I am content with the age I am at now. I miss being younger sometimes, but after so long I started to feel very happy with the nice memories from being so young and relieved that chapter of my life is completed. I don't quite know if that makes sense. I guess I just wouldn't want to relive those years but am still happy with what they held.

At the same, I notice that much of what "appears" to happen in adulthood is still so similar to what is happening for us now. I listen to an adult complain and realize the idea is the same as something now, just on a higher level. It is interesting. Lately, more than ever, I find myself questioning and thinking about a lot of psychological stuff.

About two years ago, my friend's mother strongly told me she could see me studying psychology or something in college. My mother used to tell me the same. A few weeks ago, a close teacher told me the same. I was beginning to notice a pattern. It surprised me. I decided to take a look. However, it was a few months ago that I really considered the idea of majoring in Psych in college. The idea has certaintly caught my attention and peaked my interest. I have also always wanted to teach in some way too though. The good thing is that Psych and Education go hand in hand. I guess the point of this whole paragraph is to just say how I feel a bit more solid in what I'd like to study once I reach college. I've been told I could double major in both of those. The job options would increase immensely, and I can choose to get higher degrees and work on a higher level in something. It seems pretty intriguing. I wanted to share this because I like the idea and feel you should know. It is easy for me to eliminate majors I would not want to study, particularly subjects I feel I am weak in. Of course, I can/may always change my mind, but I have a direction. From here I can take any path I want, I guess. xD

This blog is a lot longer than I anticipated. I wish someone else would write something. Practically the whole page is filled with my scrambled mind. :P I hope that is okay. Maybe someone has remembered that I said this phrase once before, but velcro is such a strong substance! I like this blog. I like the fact that I like it. I like that it is still standing. I like that you can read this if you want.

Ohhhh, and I reallyyy like music and friends! (;
I do, ha, good music is playing. It completes the equation of life! Friends make up the first half.
Tootlesssssss.

"Did you even have a clue that it was pretty on the gritty bottom of a van?"

Time to Time

Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight.
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride! ♥

You use thought to not participate in life. I use thought to not participate in life. Charlie was right. Why do we do that? Why, why, why? Hmm...don't just think, do. Interesting...

Memories are for the making. That is for sure. Although responsibility has to be the main concern. That is important. Then you can board the fun train. It is exhilarating. It defines our youth. :)

I love it. I want it to last. I want it to be just right. I want everyone to be happy. I want to speak up. I want to be heard and hear you.

Listen, just go for it. Go for it so far you can't find your way back right away.

Man, it's so loud in here. Busy, too. It makes everyone excited and feeling loose!

There is someone around you right now that feels exactly how you do. Someone, somewhere, is listening to your heartbeat. They are in the same style of shoes you have on but in a different size.

Dearest,
For some unknown reason, I cannot drop down. The next moment is blurry and only present eyes can see. Don't worry though. If you're good to me, I'll be good to you. That is all we can ever promise to do.

Happy Daylight Savings Time! It is time for sleep, see you next time.

So hear this please,
And watch as your hearts speeds up endlessly,
And look for the stars as the sun goes down.
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound.
Everything, everything's magic. *

Falling Up

"I'm keeping quiet 'till there is no more sirens.
Lately, it's been hard to keep the hinges on with all the noise.
I'll find my words when there is no one talking.
The room is spinning, I have got no choice.
Be patience, I am getting to the point."

As I sit outside on this more than gorgeous fall day, I can hear the leaves crunch upon the ground around me. The sky is blue with streaks of white cloud. My orange kitten sits on the open window ledge and breathes in the clean air. It is a really nice scene.

I have decided that it is very comforting to feel the support of great people. It makes me feel uncertain as to why someone would ever try to gain the support of one individual if they had a slew of support before the race even began. I want certain people to know that I appreciate their kindness. Certain people I never would have considered during a race have shown huge amounts of admiration. I never really went in search of acknowledgment, it nearly came and found me. I want to take a moment to just thank those certain people I have in mind. I may blush in modesty, because really, they are all too kind. :)

I have seen firsthand the effect of people making decisions and having to live with the consequence of their action. It is saddening to me how minor a choice may be to some, but how large a consequence it can bring. We all have to make choices, and even when some choices don't make sense to us quite yet, I think someday they will. Regret is a difficult concept to live with. I want to wish anyone who has to the best of luck. At the same time, I am a moderately simple person. I would never want to intentionally make a situation harder for anyone, but I would not want to make it too easy either. My advice to everyone out there coping with difficult choices is to really be cautious yet positive about them. Think before you act, but make the most of it. Be caring. People will care right back. I promise. And if they don't, there are enough who do that will make it count.

"It's just that sometimes, people use thought to not participate in life."

Actions speak louder than words. I have grown to love that cliche lately. It rings truth in my ears. I observe around me the actions of those I care about. Some actions I find surprising, others I find beautifully refreshing. Simple human gestures mean a world of difference when you have nothing but void boxes to compare them with. It can be so refreshing to realize the warmth that surrounds you instead of the frigid air you breathe in. Let's act! Even in the theatrical sense [Drama Senior Year is on the way!] Carpe diem, anyone? Friends are best friends. I know I said that before. Grab on to something to look forward to. There is plenty of room, so make a move. Shine like you mean it, don't just smile. But smiling helps. Maybe it is for the better that only the future is within our grasp. However, be careful. Velcro is such a strong substance. I said that before, also. It is just so true though. That is the hardest part. Change is an even stronger force. There is good change and bad change. I was never a fan of either, necessarily, but man, change is tough. I don't know how these trees handle it every year. I need to be stronger. I know that I am not a part of the big picture. I could tell I never was.

"But I miss you like hell."
*

One more thing I want to say is that yes, I will always be here, but I may not always be there. Just keep that in mind. There are better things to do, to think, to feel, and to see. There is no need to meander off the path unless there is a tree down, but you know what, even if there is one, I am going to jump right over it. :)

"I can't remember when the earth turned slowly,
So I just waited with the lights turned out again.
I lost my place, but I can't stop this story.
I'll find my way, but until then I'm only spinning "

For a Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

I have to say that I probably broke a record this weekend in the writing of four essays, five if you count a two paragraph mini-statement. I also read six short stories, enjoyed the fall foliage, ran into a counter, ate a juicy apple, and overslept to the point where I woke up with a headache.

I also have to say that all of the blogs I have ever written here are invaluable to me. This weekend particularly, I find myself searching for past entries in order to take bits and pieces for use in my current essays. I love reading my old entries. They portray so much detail in a life so vague. Reflecting upon my entries at times when I was feeling happiest bring a shy smile to my face because some times were just so good. I think I will miss those memories very much, but at the same time I want to build new ones. I want to be able to share those new ones, too.

I have written a few entries here lately because this blog is the only piece still connecting me with the other side. I am not sure if this bridge I am crossing can ever be fully rebuilt, but I might as well enjoy it while it lasts.

One more thing. In noticing my older entries, I was taken aback by how full of color they were. I had quotes; I had pictures. It was really nice to look at. I think that when I have the time again I will try to increase the appeal of my entries once more. I don't see why not, as it serves as a nice contrast to the bland text we all know and love.

I am going to go and have myself a cookie right now. Then I am going to resume my essays and maybe let myself be taken away through the verses of music. I hope you have a really good one, because let's face it, nobody deserves to have anything less.

Epic Failure

I just want the world to know that I am sorry. So, very, sorry. Growing up is a challenge at times. There is such a large amount of opportunity to learn from mistakes. Sometimes, I feel more sad than others. Sometimes, I just feel confused. At other times, I feel "infinite", just like Charlie did.

I feel as though I wish I wouldn't make so many mistakes along the way. I suppose I just have a lot to study and learn then. One time, a person told me "Wow Caitlin, you have a lot going for you, huh?" I had no response. For some reason, that phrase has been floating in my mind consistently ever since. I have a million things I am so grateful for, and I make myself angry that I act out in ignorance and immaturity as I take those things for granted. It hurts to know how my mistakes affect others. I cannot stand how irresponsible I am sometimes, even with the smallest of errands. I over analyze situations sometimes, in the hopes of finding a way that I could have treated the situation better. Reflecting upon this now, I do it very often. My mind becomes jumbled with situations I have zero control of changing, as they are in the past now.

Over the years, I also noticed how upset I make myself feel about not taking certain chances or going that extra mile with something. I sometimes constrain myself to set standards and have not always been loosely bound. I have missed out on potentially great opportunities this way. It makes me so sad inside when I know others are ceasing the moment and making it count, as I fade behind the curtains living in monotonous routine. It is like I feel the need to punish myself, or I find myself undeserving of what others regularly enjoy. I guess it is just a complicated situation, and nobody will care to understand it. I have to be alright with that though. And trust me, maybe over time, I can be...

I am utterly blind as to what the future has in store. Maybe the store will be filled with empty shelves, maybe it will be filled to the edge and items will be tumbling into the aisles, or maybe, maybe it will just be sparsely filled with torn reduced articles that many people overlook. It can be frightening, I guess, or outright exciting.

I just again, want you, the world, to know that I am sincerely sorry. I messed up. Unfortunately, I only seem to be continuing to mess up. If one already spills the sauce on the floor, dribbling bread crumbs on top of it only leaves more to pick up. I can only hope that I am fortunate enough to learn how to clean up my messes like a "big girl." Maybe I will have another chance at making the right decisions and thinking clearer. I am willing to try my hardest. I don't ever want to give up. The mess just gets sticky sometimes. If I learn from my faults, strive for the gold, smile meaningfully, and put others first, maybe that "infinite" feeling will visit me more often.

Peeka Boo

We Live

Everybody just wants to make it count.

I was a little girl who got lost in the waves,
but I am a swimmer. I don't want to drown.

I took a fall.

Embrace yourself.

Save me? No. You deserve to be saved more.

I'd be there holding on for life.

Bring me back to life, oh, the colors that my eyes have never seen.

Don't cry, please.

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that you are sad.

All I ever wanted was for you to be happy.

I would never do anything to influence. Please believe me.

It just got complicated so fast.

If anything is my fault, I will take any blame, but I never meant to harm. Never, ever.

Headstrong.

Life is such a gift.

How will the story end?

Please don't hate me. Please, please.

I'm so scared.

What if I will forever be stuck in this hole?

I got tangled up in myself.

Happy Birthday.

It is so confusing, I know. I understand. I relate. I care.

I am crawling on the ground, and I found I could fly.

Think I sound crazy? Maybe. Whatever. What's it all about?

I miss this.

Stand up and shout.

The truth is, we're winning but we're losing.

I've felt that way. It's terrible. I understand. I would do the same thing. But I swear, I swear.

Give me a reason that we can believe in.

Selfish and disgusting, unfair and untruthful.

Beautiful and intelligent, caring and honest.

Memories.

Tomorrow is just another day.

Forever will I keep that.

We're young. Don't ever forget that.

Friends talk. Harmlessly, I mean it.

Pick up the phone. Nobody's home.

I want to scream aloud that I'll be okay.

Makeup and take-out food. Count those reasons why.

My mind is spinning around.

I need to breathe.

Don't leave. Please, don't leave. Please.

Yesterday is gone. I saw it on the calendar.

Humans make mistakes. My goal is to learn from each and every one.

Maybe I just need to wake up.

Rocky emotions.

It's okay, it's alright.

No matter what, I am always here. Hate me or not, I would never leave you hanging.

And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.

I let the quiet get the best of me.

Doubts and insecurities.

Please unlock the door. Only the special ones are allowed in.

I hope you don't blame me. Please.

I failed, and I'm ready to be shown how.

I fear you hate me.

Forgiveness.

Hate is such a strong word, kids. Use it sparingly.

Obstacles. Not one did I set up intentionally. Never would I hurt so much.

Forced to live in this mess I made.

I can't ask you to give what you already gave.

Friends are best friends.

I'm sorry. Maybe you can find your smile again. That is all I would ask for.

I knew you were something special in the third seat.

Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup.
They slither while they pass,
They slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy,
are drifting thorough my open mind.

Rumbles of thunder are inevitable. Only the strongest survive.

Hope.

We live, We love,
We forgive, and never give up.

School and Other Rambles

Poor bloggie. It is so quiet in these here parts. :P I hope that changes soon! I feel the need for some action-packed entries, how 'bout it kids? -nobody answers- Ah man. :P I'm here though, but it has been a long time since I even wrote which I am shameful of so who am I to speak? :P Last time I wrote about my beautiful vacation, and boy, I have to admit that it sure is nice to have those memories to reflect upon if I am having a rough moment one day or need a boost of hope and happiness. After I settled back into rural life, the end of my summer was pretty good! I went to a really fun camping party with my close friends, and it served as a wonderful end of summer closing event. =) I also did numerous other things that I really can't recall. xD Mostly with my friends, and anything we do is fantastic and extremely fun just because we are with each other. I think every relationship, no matter what kind, should be that way now that I think about it. The type of situation where even if you are in an empty field of grass or a gigantic stadium, you are ecstatic and happy because of the person(s) you are with. =)

I guess the main topic of this blog should focus on the fact that school began 11 days ago. After getting my schedule fixed, I have to say that so far all of my classes seem very promising. =) The first few days went real smoothly, and I enjoy having more Study Halls. I waited three years for some helpful extra time like that. xD I'm glad to be back in school though, aside from the difficult struggle of waking up pretty early. Ahhck, that is tough for me. :P I'll give a brief rundown of my classes and the first opinion that comes to my mind for them.

Study Hall/Gym: Uhm, gym might be different with a different teacher, but I like this period. :P Gym with the CANs together senior year, is the best!

Spanish 4: Despite being mixed with juniors, this class is small which I like. It is pretty upbeat in there, too. Sounds good!

AP Calc: Teacher is great, small class is great, and I love how I feel so comfortable raising my hand a lot. :P

Music Appreciation: I like it, because I love music/musicals and that sort of stuff. I just feel weird going down that hallway for a class. It is sort of awkward, and I probably won't get used to it until May.

American History 3: Big class, packed. Makes me miss my last year history teacher a lot. Oh, and I had a blast learning the capitals/states again. :P This is the period when I eat my snack to prevent starvation from waiting for lunch. xD

AP English: Real fun! I like sitting in a horseshoe and discussing as well as digressing about topics. Very laid back atmosphere.

Lunch: is yummy.

Physics: May be one of the toughest or contain more work than the others. Science always seems to be for me anyway. Grrrreat teacher, mhm, that's right. ;]

Study Hall: Sweat box, hotttt, crowded, but good pals there. :P

Anyway, I've finally grasped a copy of the novel "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" and it is such an adorable story. I feel the narrator sounds much younger than he actually is, but I really like the statements he makes and I have already quoted him in some places. My next assignment is to also start reading "Brave New World" which I have heard mixed reviews over. I picture it as a colony settler book from like the 1500s, but it obviously is not that, haha. In other news, I have been steadily trying to practice driving on the actual roads. I have divided the roads in levels depending on traffic and speed, so it can be related to a video game where I have to gain enough "XP" to move up to the next level. That way I have some sort of plan and goal, because I am not ready yet to jump on the highway until I am comfortable on other roads and so forth.

I feel like I want to write another entry sometime soon about deeper topics. This one is not going in that direction at all, which I find slightly depressing. :P I always feel more proud of my deeper entries that aren't just "Hey, went to the mall today, yay that was fun, and well, time for homework bye." :P Haha re-reading that is amusing. A posted one sentence blog entry. Probably not even a grammatically correct sentence either. Especially considering the fact my grammar is on a hill and falling down the side at a life-threatening speed. (That is a whole other issue I am working on. :P) I actually did go to the mall tonight though with my friends. It was fun because it was so spur of the moment and it took a long time to even decide we wanted to go there. I am glad we did though! ;D -yawn- Wow, I feel tired now. :P This blog has a lot of emoticon faces, it is buggin' me. I think I am going to conclude here before I really begin to ramble. Hopefully I will write again soon, as in tomorrow? Ooh..that would be nice, and perfect too as I have just the topic due to my plan of research for rainy tomorrow. ;] G'night!

Real World Traders- I applaud you...

Hi guys its me, back with another exciting post. To begin, do not let my title fool you. Real world trading is bad and illegal and I do not support it in anyway. But, ever since RuneScape began making changes to the game to prevent it, I have benefitied from it. See, I am a pure freeplayer, and before November 2007, the free game was never updated. Infact, until that time the only f2p update besides holiday events was the stronghold of security. Well, it all began in Nov. 2007, with the grand exchange. Reading bts september, a place like this was mentioned. At the time i never expected it to be like it is, but it sounded cool. The ge is pretty much wal mart in the game. Although it compltely took trading out of the game, it made things a bit more efficient. I can now buy 25k big bones in a matter of minutes for the same price instead of saying buying b bones 450 ea 1million times. A hoo ra to jagex. Next game dec 10, with the most controversial update in rs history. Pvp and wilderness changes -shivers-, along with rev's and gravestones. To futher prevent rwt, jagex got rid of tradional wilderness playerkilling and replaced it with bounty hunter and clan wars. They also got rid of the bone yard -cries- and shrunk the wilderness. Now these updaes where negative, but needed for the game. F2p also got team capes and the much needed duel arena. At this point rs was indifferent with me, Then came a new year, and on the second day, I witnesed the macros leave. Yes, they removed balanced trade. A needed update, and I like that it is in place, although it hinders some previous in game fun. At this point f2p was a little worse then before, but not by much since we gained some features. Next came Feb. and the state of play was released, giving hope where it was needed. Some time passed, and FOG came out, along with new lvl up messages, new interface, and little hp status buttons. Finally, in July rs hd was released to f2p, which one day i hope to enjoy, but here in August is hwrre it gets good. Promised to be added to the game are 4 new pvp features, yes 4. Clan wars changes, army game 0.0, skiller game, and pvp worlds. This gave me a reason to play, so all in all, I benefited. Btw, i porbably missed some updates... Like the rc guild duh', another great update, which came witht he best rs f2p mage gear.....

In other news, rs has been a bit stagnant for me lately since I am mostly waiting for pvp to come out. I kinda have a goal of mining only rune ores to lvl 86, and I have around 300 atm 0.0....

In other news yet again, my school opens up on Tues, and i got my schedule yesterday. Turns out in my school math and english mean nothing, since I do not have them, I have study hall in place. Not really surprising coming from my school though. I also got home ec 2, when I nvr took home ec 1. But all in all, RWT collapsing caused upset, but brought some joy, and soon to be terror from people in pvp combat 0.0

P.S. Bts September, we ned you!

Bummin' & Jammin'

I am sitting at home being bummed out due to the fact that we were supposed to go to the Kid Rock and Lynyrd Skynyrd concert tonight in Camden and the people that we were supposed to go with backed out at the last minute. Now Jimmy and I are sitting around jammin' out to the Kid Rock and Skynyrd cd's that he has. I guess that it's kinda cute when he said that we could have our own concert :) very sweet......but do you know what else would be really sweet? Actually listening to them both play live. I guess the saying you can't always get what you want is a true one. I've been absent from the blog lately due to the fact that I was internetless. Yesterday the comcast cable guy came and hooked up the modem to my laptop and I think that I have been on this dam computer since, well minus a few hours due to sleep. I am going to try to post as often as I can. Well I guess that I will end this and get back to my concert (haha) .....hope that you are all well and wish you best of luck in your upcoming school years, the last for some of you :(

The Big One...

Hi everyone its me (rs name Trans Power). I'd like to begin my post by discussing my latest Runescape goal, 85 mining. This morning at 6:01 a.m. I got to 85 mining. A very nice acheivement, for less then 25,000 people have 85+ mining. I am now officially a rune miner. I started mining at lvl 73 (see below) and I mined over 96,000 iron ores tog et the over 2mil xp needed for 85. How I did it you might ask.... well, as you know I am a pure f2p, i was never a member. I chose to powrmine iron from lvl 73 to 85. To be honest I hated it, so many people come to powermine, its a snarf or be snarfed world. You get skillers, high lvls, idiots, children, everyone. I first chose to mine in world 1 rimmington, thinking it would be all nice and serene. But i was mistaken. Huge crowds, lots of rulebreakers, and some idiot power miner from Runescape name Coolillboi. Ha i beat him to 85 ;). Then at lvl 81, I got so sick of Rimmi, seeing the same people daily, so I decided to go to Al Karid, thinking scorps would take care of skillers. I was wrong, and it was the same mess there. But i stuck with it and got to 85. I started out getting 30k xp a day, and by the last ay I had gotten 150k a day. I also want to mention that mining in rs is messed up. Levels do not mean a thing, I was beaten so many times by people lower them me with fast computers, and yes that got annoying. But i stuck with it and I am happy its over. I persoannly do not reccomend powermining. Your hand will hurt and it kills you slowly, but if you want to try Rimmington or Al Karid. I would reccomend mining coal from the guild, or mining coal and mithril and making bars, since iron kills you and you get some sweet profit. All in all, mining is a very difficult skill, much harder then fishing, cooking, or woodcutting. It requires constant attention, and constant clicking. Not very fun, but 85 is worth the profits....

Well, after 85 and my mini alone party and screenies, I went to mine runite. I wear green d hide legs and top, and do not weild my pick, for I think it makes you mine a bit faster. I hopped to world 127, and went north, to find one rock empty. I mined my first runite, getting it in one hit! Then i hopped around discovering many rocks empty, rune miners must mine a lot. Then i settled in world 149, forund two ores, and started to mine. I was then attacked by a rev ork, but what pker's lacked next to rev's in power, they made up in brains. I tricked the rev and got him stuck behind a tree, and mined my runite. My goal is to mine 1k ores, and make 12mil. I will in time. Word of advice though, rune mining is not as perilous as one might think.

Besides mining in runescape, most playuers have heard the new updates. Not the awesome new guild, but the prmose for more pvp! I am going to prepare for these, all 4 of them (clwars, skiller game, moblising armies, and pvp worlds) I just hope they are for f2p, but I honestly cannot see them not being for all recent replacements for wildy have been. I also think for pvp worlds there will be one safespot, a sorta "wildy centre" where there is a bank etc, and it will bring old fashioned traing back into the game, since there is no GE. These updates are prmised before 2009, making this a great RS year. From Nov 2007 till now has been the best time ever for a pure f2p, not couting the removal of the wilderness. We got more updates then ever! Every month it seemed, GE, clwars/bh, fog, player safety, rc guild, diary, hd, new skill screen, run button, and more. And with these 4 new updates promised and hopefully for f2p, this would cap off a great year!

Now to real life, my school starts in less then a week. I will be in 10th grade, and to be honest I don't really care. I always just kinda float my way through school, and I hope the same can be said for this year. I have a small worry, but I hope it will be nothing to really worry about. Well that was my post, and before i forget, enjoy these timeless images!

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Oh Sea!

Seventeen summers ago I was seven months old. It was my first summer, and it was the first time I ever saw the ocean. I was quite the little tot, with my rolling red curls and big brown eyes. There was this instant affection between me and the foamy waves of that huge body of water. As other children next to me screamed and hollered in fear as the waves came gushing towards their little feet, I giggled playfully and wanted more and more of it. I didn't seem scared. I seemed fascinated. Every summer since then [give or take a few where life dealt no opportunity], I have been really fortunate to visit the ocean, stick my feet in the sand, and smell the salty air. In my mind, nothing beats that feeling when I first see the ocean again. I have so many memories of being at the shore every summer. From the afternoon a seagull stole my sandwich right from my hands, to the evenings where I walked the entire boardwalk to the inlet ledge, my mind holds on to these wonderful moments. This past weekend I returned from being on vacation there for two whole weeks. :) It was particularly different than past times for numerous reasons, but the feeling was still the same. I had a time I will always remember as it sure was the best two weeks of my whole summer. :) I was occupied with various activities at all hours of the day and night, so even though I brought my journal along in case I wanted to write, I never did so this time around. Most of what I wrote about in the last blog I published when I went remains the same with this trip so I wouldn't want to utterly repeat myself. I did do a lot of swimming though, and this time I brought two big inner tubes which I took in the ocean. They turned out to be pretty fun, as long as I didn't get stuck in the tube when a wave was about to turn on my head. Otherwise I may not be here right now to write this. xD I went on many walks as well. This time the place we were staying was in front of a large park, filled with trails, fields, and the bay. There was a gorgeous dock that went out quite a ways into the bay and walking down it was amazing, especially when the sun was setting. :) I also took the bus numerous times, which I honestly feel is an attraction ride in itself. Simply meeting all the different, and I mean different, from interests to culture to nationality, people that ride the bus is really interesting and lots of fun. I went to the boardwalk many nights and did a lot of shopping this time, too. I bought two pairs of shoes and after a lot of looking around for the one I liked the most, I bought a really nice tye-dye hooded sweatshirt with any decal I wanted to be printed on it. :D

There were also some other things. :) I went to an Elvis concert, met Spongebob and Patrick while I was away, attended an ice skating show, saw some dolphins and three giant blobby schools of fish, woke up in the night to go midnight madness shopping, admired the Amish, watched the Olympics, joked about this guy on the beach named Erv, had some possible senior pictures, lay in the sun, listened to some Spanish, went walking on the beach in the middle of the night in total darkness with two chocolate cakes, skinned my knee, climbed in the lifeguard stand, learned how to say "hi" using flags, rubbed like a total of 40 pounds of suntan lotion in my skin, wore big sunglasses and pretty outfits, sat in traffic, and then was involved in my first car accident. As you can maybe guess, I had an exciting time. ;] The car accident is true [as is everything else I just named], but thankfully it was not a serious crash of any sort. On our way down to the beach area, once on a certain stretch of highway, people from all states around meet and it just gets very crowded and very slow. Having multiple traffic lights to sit at makes it more congested, too. Well, everyone was sitting in bumper to bumper barely moving traffic when the small sized car behind us rolled into the back of our Jeep Liberty [if you don't know, Liberty's have the big tire on the back of the vehicle]. Suddenly there was a big thump, and I felt as though someone just pushed my back forward. The tire on the back of the Jeep is what took the entire impact, without it the back would have been crunched in! The smaller vehicle that hit the tire, well, the front hood and headlight area was very crunched in, paint was scratched off, the hood was open, and liquid was leaking out. Their vehicle would no longer move and had to be towed away. =O I was shocked and scared at first this whole event even happened. It was a pretty shaky way to start off a vacation, but I was just glad we had that tire in the back and of course, that nobody got hurt or anything.

Thankfully the weather was warm and sunny for the majority of the time I was down at the beach though. There was a thunderstorm or two, one time when everyone had to scramble from the beach. That was pretty exciting. :P I really did enjoy my time there and miss it a whole lot though. :) Now that I am back home, I've been trying to busy myself incredibly. Some stuff in my life back here still seems to be shaky. When I was away, it was like my mind physically could not let me think of anything but the ocean and the sun. I did worry, sometimes when I would try to go asleep, about this or that back at home. I didn't want to let it get to me though. I guess I just want everything to be a certain way, and being the doubtful person I can be, I fear the worst in all my situations. It is terrible though, how I can think up the worst case scenario so much that I begin telling myself it must be happening that way, when really maybe it's not at all. In the least, I can still have hope...

Now with school lingering so close you can feel it, I am beginning to be ready to officially enjoy and gain as much as I can from my final year in high school. I feel slightly more confident about handling all of these upcoming college- related decisions, and really, I just want everything to fall into place this year. I look at the senior year as one of those "we're all in this together" moments. We are a graduating class that grew up together, literally, and now that we are to appear as the most mature students, I have hope we can pull through together by putting any ugly immature aspects behind us and making the best memories we can one last time. :) I know that I wish to look back upon such days with a smile and a laugh, not a sigh of regret for not taking the chances that could have been worth everything. ;]

I am going to conclude my entry here. I have not lost any anticipation for Broken Typos, just like a baby in the womb I am sure it will be born and presented to the public when it is fully ready. ;P I will attach a few pictures below from my vacation as well. Adios!

The Great Adjustment....

Hi guys its me, been awhile since my last post, but here i go again. My title is where i will begin. Lately I have been going to bed later and laer and waking up later and later. But to adjust for school, I am going to put an end to this. Today I am going to stay up from the time i go to sleep to around 10 or 11 at night, then go to sleep. Hopefull I can adjust myself back to school time, and keep it that way. I wouldn't mind waking up at 4 and going to bed at 8. This is going to be tougher then I thought, but I have Buddy's support. In other news I just ripped most of the sleeves off my t-shirts, they get annoying...

RuneScape has been good to me lately. With the release of the runecrafting guild for f2p I had fun playing the mini game and I got myself full robes, which are the best in f2p. Also i got tokens for tele tabs since you cannot but the staff in f2p. a great update and good since few low lvls can enter, so its nice in there. You can also watch the game from the many altars in RuneScape, which is actually kinda cool. Also, since every f2p that neglected to train runecraft in the past wants in the guild, there is no rune or pure ess for sale there, and people have resorted back to standing in east varrock bank yelling buying ess full price. Lucky i bought 3mil in ess beforehand. In other news mining is going great, I am lvl 83 and about 585k till 85, 278k till 84, so thats all good. I also did a test on time it takes to mine runite ore and how it sells and they both did well.RuneScape is going good, but what I really want is the new clan wars updates, guess I will have to keep waiting....

School..ew. I do not want it to come but its inevtiable. I want it to be good, but for some reason I am worried. I am going into 10th grade its not like I am going to a new school or anything, but its hard to describe. I feel weird about it. -sigh- I also want to get myself a laptop computer, top of the line 4 gb of ram, but that seems doubtful at best. This old peice of junk will have to do. Well, for a final note to all you runecrafter wanna be's out there the guild rocks and its not to high so stop complaining, you cannot enter for a reason. Rc mage robes and tele tabs's ftw!

Trust

I would like to base this paragraph off of the idea of trust. Trust is a crucial part of society in human life. Without it, we couldn't do anything really. We need to trust one another to build things, trust one another in business deals, etc. Also, trust is what defines a friendship. If youc annot trust someone they cannot be your friend. In people, trust can be a fragile concept. One slip up and your pegged untrustworthy for life. So I ask everyone to ensure that others can trust you, and to keep it in the vault...

In other news, I have been playing RuneScape a bit more. I got to level 78 mining, and I am halfway to 85 xp wise. Also, I think after mining I may consider training combat a bit, since the upcoming clan wars and pvp updates I want to be ready. I will probably only train defense, magic , and prayer, the surivival skills. Most of those games are about survival, so I need to be able to take hits, bind enemies, and use prayer effectivly. Also, any player moderaters from runescape that may read this, I urge you to refer Buddy Foote. He deserves it from what i've seen, and he will be a great help to your cause.

Finally, I got Steve into some music I like. he was listening to some interesting tunes, but I set him on the right path, and reccomended him some Van Halen tunes, most of which from their album 5150. I like these songs very much and would reccomend them to most people. I also enjoy Cracked rear view from Hootie and the Blowfish, so thats worth a listen. Well, thats all i wanted to say, and please leave any comments about my post.

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Beachy Hearts

Imagine it being the middle of the night and there is complete silence. Maybe you are lying in bed even, but you are wide awake. Have you ever started to hear a noise and worry it was someone breaking in or something? Then, as you get worked up, it seems as though the noise is only getting louder. Suddenly, you pause, and realize that what you are hearing is only the most precious and amazing part of your body. Your very own beating heart. ♥

I watch hospital shows on television sometimes, last night in particular, and it is during times like that when I really appreciate and grow fascinated with the human body. Watching an organ transplant is really unimaginable. My favorite part is when the patient is given a heart, let's say, from another body, and once the heart is in place, there is that moment, that first moment, when you get to witness the heart fill up completely red and thump. It is really amazing, if you ask me. I guess the point I am trying to make is that when it is silent during the night, and you are awake, and you hear your heart beat, if you put your palm there for a moment, just a moment, and feel the knowledge of your very being alive, it helps you value what should be most important. Not everything always works out the way our naive minds sometimes hope and pray that it will. Every single person encounters some sort of mishap, minor and major, throughout their life. It is those minor mishaps that can really cause pain to the inexperienced. The kind of pain that simply consumes them entirely. They need to be told that even though their first bike broke, their pet turtle died, the girl they have a crush on doesn't like them back, Grandma is entering the hospital, or they have to move to a new school, everything will be alright. Everything will work itself out. Those that care won't ever leave your side, and those that do never belonged in the first place. You are a breathing individual with a beating heart, you are alive, you need to live, you need to cherish what you have, and focus on what makes you happiest. :) You may disagree, but in the least, thinking like that can bring hope to a dreary day.

Now that I released that from the depths of my unusual mind, I am here writing another blog so soon, as promised, because I'll be leaving early tomorrow morning. I will be on my way to enter the busy lands of sandy beaches, choppy waves, rugged boardwalk, crowded restaurants, and hotels with no vacancy signs. :D I'll be laying in the warm sand, thinking of nothing that bothers me, hearing the buzz of family chatter, and wondering when the cute little ice cream truck siren will return. It will hopefully be a nice escape for me, just some time to be away and feel excited over the different sights, sounds, and of course, the amazing smells down there. ;] I'm going to miss all of my friends a lot though. I am really excited to go, I can't believe it is tomorrow already, and that I will be there longer than I have ever gone for before. I plan to take plenty of pictures and will have a journal nearby for any possible blog excerpts. ;] I hope the best to come of Broken Typos, too! I guess this will be the end here. ^^ Wouldn't want to drag this out and bore any potential reader. So until next time, have a really good two weeks! :) ♥

Why Talk When No One's Listening...

My title may come off as being a bit gloomy, but its suitable for how I've felt on RuneScape the past few days. See, in the game there are players known and admired by all. Zezima, N0valyfe, Uloveme, Yogoson. These are all great players from the game. But there are a few players that are "pure f2p". These people are Mendark 9, and Syszgy for example. All i would like to say is that Mendark 9 and Syzygy were once members during their careers, so tehm falunting about as pure f2p bothers me. Perhaps they did get all their skills to 99s, but they were once members and to caravant around claiming the oppisite is an outrage i feel. But some may ask, how do you know they were members... Well here is how i know. If you go to account management on the rs homepage, then to recover a password, you get a screen to type a name in. Type Sysyzgy's for example. According to yourtube and the rs wiki he was nvr a member. On the contrary, you can cleary see underneath his recovery questions that he was once a member since it has his subcristion information. Now do the same process for my name (Trans Power) and there will be no subscribtion info. The same applies for Mendark 9 and some others. So why should these players get the respect and love they do when what they are really doing is lieing. Now do not get me wrong its possible for them to have only trained in f2p, but once a member always one i feel. They are great players, but i feel justice needs to be served, but as my title says no one wants to hear the truth. I am flustered by this fact but life goes on....

In other news I have been playing RuneScape some more. I got to 76 mining and I am close to 77. I thought of a good long term rs goals to keep the game fun. Note: This only applies if I never are to become a member, that is a possibilty but certain conditions apply. My goals after 84 mining are 1mil xp in every skill, and to get a 99 in something. I was thinking defense since its simple and benficial. Perhaps one day I will be the first pure f2p to get 1494. (Note I do not count Syzygy getting 99 prayer and 1494 since i check backed in november to see if he was a mem and it said it there, and he got the 99 prayer this january). Also i think there might be 1 or 2 pure f2p's with totals in the 1490s, but i need names to check it out.

In a happier mood i watched the movie Bruce Almighty today. It was a funny and i reccomend it, I also found out that Steve Carell was in it as the character he would go on to play in Evan Almighty. I also would like to bring up a subject thats been bothring me. I guess its partially rs related, but it has to do with being the best. The first player ever to play rs (during the beta) was Rab. He is the oldest but does that make him the best? The first player ever to reach 99 firemaking was cowchicken, is he the best? How can the term "best" be defined, not only in RuneScape but in real life as well. i was surfing the web and the idea crossed my mind about whats the point of doing something unless your the best. For example ( i use rs to analyze things a lot) prior to summoning everyone new who the best player was, Zezima, but who could even spell the 2nd best, Uloveme? Miles14 has the most xp in all his combats but he is not considered the best. Do not get me wrong its just a game, but I would like to define who the best is. In my eyes, I very well think its Rab. The first president is considered the best (George Washington for anyone who doesn't know) so i claim Rab to be the best ever. And for the notice the first person to ever be baned was named boot. Well, I guess thats all I had to say, i really just wanted to point out who was once a member etc. Until next time i suppose.

Walking on Air

I really enjoy tasting a spoonful of history from time to time. Just enough to get my tongue wet, maybe bring a warm smile to my face. :) Stumbling upon past blog entries has done just that for me. I've only been writing here since 2006, yet I cannot decide whether it feels longer or shorter than that actual space of time. Last evening I was scanning through some of my very first entries, and they were really quite cute. With the idea of moving to a new blog home in the future arising regularly, I can really only feel much excitement and anticipation for new thoughts to be exposed on untouched pages. ;)

I am leaving early this weekend for a two week vacation. Not a family vacation, specifically, but a warm and hopefully relaxing vacation nonetheless. I remember, during the Spring when I was at the high point of being pummeled with everything a teenager can possibly face, and imagining myself in a few months lying on the beach with absolutely no due dates or social headaches to worry about. The thought relaxed me and helped make everything at the time more worthwhile. It is pretty neat to think of how immensely busy a person can be during one month, but within a matter of weeks they can be free, accomplished, and rewarded for all their hard work. :) If there is one stressful concept weighing me down continuously still, it is that of "college." I still personally feel distaste towards the entire concept of figuring out and making decisions so very important. I have never, ever, been a fantastic decision maker. Even the slightest of situations, like deciding whether I want a ham or turkey sandwich for lunch, can cause me to bite my lip and stare blankly at the person asking me until they say "How about turkey?" and I readily nod without a problem. I am eager to further my education, don't get me wrong, I love learning, but knowing I have to decide on certain things is absolutely not my cup of tea. Sometimes I wish the perfect school would land at my feet. That is highly improbable though, and I probably would not even like it anymore once it fell. I've been changing my mind a lot too which makes everything more difficult. Last week I could have wanted to be a surgeon in Florida, and this week maybe I am craving the idea of majoring in bugs in a rural university in Wyoming. Really now, not a word in that last sentence has ever stood true, but at least you can see how wide of changes my mind can make. Oh and by the way, bugs, as well as dirt, are two very new exciting majors in some colleges across the country. Check your local listings. xD

Sunday I went to Warped Tour, which proved to be another exhilarating event. I went last year for the first time and it was so thrilling and amazing I fell in quintuple love with my favorite band and had a stranger's saliva hit my ankle. Even though I'd have to say last year's was a bit more fun, I still had a good time going again. :) I got to see Family Force 5 play, who are my favorite. Just watching their more than adorable sweaty faces play, dance, and sing right in front of you is priceless!! ;D It was also really cool to retrieve a beach ball which they later signed for me. =)) Another neat group worth mentioning that we saw was Shwayze, which were actually pretty cool, and more popular than I had thought. [I honestly didn't know who they were until that day..hush. :P] My friends and I would have loved to see more bands, but we were forced to leave a little earlier than expected due to a severe thunderstorm that poured on top of our very heads. xD I have never been as soaking wet as I was that afternoon. Boy oh boy, I was squeezing gallons of water out of my clothes. haha :P I think being heavily rained on was really fun though. I mean, I was with my great friends, and we are running across a parking lot that, note: is muddy and flooded, and hail is falling in your face so you are forced to close your eyes and hope that the gravel smacking your bare legs won't hurt too bad. xD Haha oh my gosh, it was something else. :P We even took pictures of us as soon as we reached this little off-limits shed we found, as shelter was a necessity once we left the compounds of the pavilion. ;P Anyways, I really like Warped Tour because of the close interaction with the bands and the immense crowd of people. This one guy in a band questioned me repeatedly as to why I had the word "Florida" on my tank top. It turned out he was from Florida, and if I didn't agree I was from there too and that was why I had the shirt on, then he was going to take my paper from me. xD Haha see..you never know what to expect! :P

As soon as I have pictures developed from the concert, I'll be sure to pop a few on here. :) Another item you may be curious to see pictures of is my first car! =) I am incredibly ecstatic [and tremendously grateful] to reveal that there is a smaller sized vehicle [Chevy Malibu] now residing at my home in which I have begun learning to drive in. It is a pretty cute car, and I really adore it! I drove it on the road twice thus far, which was quite an experience that took sooo much focus and energy from my mind. I felt really drained and weak afterwards, is that normal? Haha. ;P

Anywho, I am happy to say I have logged onto Runescape a time or two this week. My brother enjoys playing it a little here and there, and even if it may be infested by younger humans by the mass load, it is still fun to cut trees and make fires and get lost when you are a clueless wonder without good virtual game direction! ;)

I feel like there is a lot more on my mind I could share in this blog entry. Sometimes though, maybe it is "just enough" to focus on the more positive aspects. At the current time I think it is sometimes more relieving to stay clear of the road construction and take an alternate route because maybe that other way will be decorated with blooming flowers and fresh trees, filling your heart with hope and your mind with wisdom. So many people get injected with doses of burden and it will really weigh you down if you aren't strong enough to break the needle. Not everybody is strong like Superman though, but at least you can try. ;)

What's Happening

Hi guys, its been a while since I've posted buy only because my last few posts back in april were completely ignored, and the recent inter blog drama. I will start though with a report on my current working out. I started weight training/lifting and running 1 mile a day back in March, and i have seen some marvelous results. My bench press max is about 165, which is 2olbs more then i weigh and I am only 15 >.> My mile time is within 6 mins, decent, and I can do 60 lb machine flyes with ease, back in march i had trouble with 10. Overall I have basically gotten sexified. In other news...

I have been playing runescape a bit on and off. I was never a member so there is not much fun to have but i play a bit. Currently i am training my mining to lvl 84. Its hard since i have no pals, and sicne free world training is real hard, but i make do. Only 2mil xp to 84 yay. Also i recently found out that my total lvl rank of 1069 is in the 100 best of that lvl, i big accomplishment i would say, and since i was never a member to add those other skills. My name is Trans Power is you are curious of my skills.

Summer has been ok i guess, it just goes by quick and your left wondering what you could of done with the time. Its almost August -blah- and my 2 week solo vacation is coming up so yay me. I spend my days sporaticly at best i would say, waking up around noonish to 2 (yea 2 thats right) but i go to bed around 3 or 4 but whatev' :P I have been following my favorite celebrity a lot lately though, and I usually will watch anything said person is in. All in all i guess nothing much has changed. Go Oscar Wilde and go Caydalyn go 50 wc!


Wow under 2mil xp to go =).

Happy New Blog Year! (3rd Anniversary)

As the character representative of Oscar Wilde states in "Oscar Wilde and a Death of No Importance" in regards to his birthday – "This happens to be my birthday, Robert, and on each of my anniversaries I mourn the flight of one year of my youth into nothingness, . . .". Oscar's wise words, most likely fictionally created by the author, Gyles Brandreth, only applies to living material. In the case of celebrating the creation of an inanimate object (with a great model being this very blog), one cannot be sorrowful about the anniversary of such. The age of this blog brings with it an uprising of content, friendship, and intelligence. Look not to the past with teary eyes, but rather to the future with high hopes of optimism. With the new site of Broken Typos hopefully being released in the coming month, there is without a doubt that the blog will be heading into a prosperous state. However, we cannot disregard the steps it took to get this far. Sure, the blog may not be roaring with activity and page views, but it sure as hell feels good to look back at it at the end of the day and see everything you have created over the years.

Here's to the third year of Buddy Foote's Blog v.2, and disregarding the name change to Broken Typos, may we witness and experience many more years of this blog to come! Now drink your ale before a nun cracks your knuckles with a ruler!

The Real Value

Look around you at your current location. What do you see? In front of you is a computer, most likely, unless you are reading this article on a PDA, cell phone, or those new nifty iPhones. Are you at a desk? What material is it made of – oak, willow, maple? Look around the room. All that stuff that makes the room what it is. A bed makes a bedroom, a toilet makes a bathroom, a dining table makes a dining room, etc. All that materialistic junk that means so much to you. Do you really care for it? Of course you do. Everything around you came into your household via money. Sure, it may have been a gift or even a free handout, but throughout the lifetime of the object in question, money was involved somewhere. To even gather the material to manufacture the object required money. Money – greenbacks and coins. It means so much to society. Whatever we do as a society depends on the value of the nation's currency. Technically, unless you're a nudist, going outside in public without the motive of buying anything still involves money because, honestly, you have to have bought the clothes you're wearing.

Sure, we should appreciate people for who they are, what they do, etc. and not on what they have. Will we remember 'Person A' because he owned a mansion up on the hill or 'Person B' who died saving three children from a house fire? The sad and pathetic truth is that most people may very well remember the mansion more and therefore 'Person A'. The other guy just gets a mention in the newspaper and make the news for every local station for the day, but that's all they'll get. Why should we care what we'll be remembered for? It seems troubling to live one's life and then leave it behind without making some sort of scar. 'Person B' scarred many people by being a true hero, but 'Person A' will always have that material constructed of wood, brick, mortar, and glass up on that hill for many people to see until the mansion falls. Will somebody remember Bill Gates because of his role in the foundation of Microsoft or because he was one of the richest guys in the world?

We can always go around preaching about how society should be less materialistic, but is that really practical? If we choose to give up the materialistic aspects of society, then we hurt ourselves. How can we prove a point that life will be better without materialistic goods when we're defying the norms of society, and therefore we're suddenly in poverty. If I said, "Yea, life is good without money, cars, and everything," and the person looks at me and sees me dirty, starving, and 'not good' in their own self-image, then I'll be nothing but a contradiction to them. The point being: you can't prove that a materialistic life will be better when society doesn't allow you to prove that point. Everything must have value, or we have nothing to live for. What's your goal in life? Get a good-paying job, get a nice house, have a loving and caring family to give birth to and raise – besides the love and family part, the rest screams "Money!" And without the motive of earning money because we won't have anything to buy, what will we do with our time? Not even time, but our lives? What really is there to live for? Can love even exist without materials? Even though we say that society would be better without the need for money, the point is that we won't have a society without the need of money. The structure that controls our life, no matter how restraining it may seem, helps us. It makes us live. It guides us into a meaningful life. If you're willing to give up all your materialistic goods, you're only harming yourself and benefitting nothing. And good luck trying to find supporters. You might as well head over to an emo nightclub, but even then, they still want materialistic goods like razors and Snoopy bandages.

In the current American recession and with the skyrocketing gas prices, the one object on everybody's mind is money. You can never have enough of it. There's always something to spend it on. However, should we look to more in life than money? Of course, but even then, to get to that spot in life, money is needed.

And with that, I leave you for the night. Have a good one.

Facepalming Over Layouts

This fellow to the left here has the right idea in mind when it comes to a novice tackling the overwhelming challenge of creating a layout on an alien blogging platform. First of all, I would like to apologize for the unannounced hiatus I took from writing on the blog before I continue this entry any further. I have been having the biggest lack of motivation and creativity in my history and it’s been creating a huge impact on the list of goals I wanted to achieve this summer. More than three-fourths of that list will not be complete. Hopefully the challenge of creating a new website can be achieved, and therefore here we are on the topic that I initially wanted to discuss.

I’m ‘facepalming’ myself right now, actually, as I have an extremely bad case of writer’s block. I’m not sure how to cure it either. I need to stimulate myself more when it comes to writing. I find that it’s easy to write when faced with a conversational situation, but when I open up a blank Word document and try to write a mere sentence, I freeze up, close the document, and become depressed due to the fact that I failed yet again. I don’t even know why I’m typing this now. It’s just a factor that has been bothering me personally. Even though we migrated away from the main subject, maybe this random mumbling can help in the stimulation of my writing abilities and recalling skills. Okay, let’s try this again . . .

In June, I made the purchase of brokentypos.com, which is hosted on Host Monster. I installed the new blogging platform that I wish to transfer Buddy Foote’s Blog v.2 to and really – that’s all I did. The new platform is Wordpress. I came into this project with optimistic dreams and a head filled with innovative ideas, until I saw what I was faced with. Creating a Wordpress layout is not as easy as making a Blogger layout. In Blogger, you only have one file to edit to change the layout of your blog. On the other hand, in Wordpress, you have a multiplicity of .php files (and .css file) to torment you. I read a variety of topics about creating layouts, including scanning sections of the book, Wordpress for Dummies, at Borders, but yet I still feel overwhelmed by the project. I could always cheat by importing a premade theme into my Wordpress files, using that temporarily, and then create a homemade theme whenever I feel prepared enough to take up that challenge so that I don’t waste a few months of paying for my web host, but I sort of want my own touch to the site before it’s opened to the public.

I am faced with a few problems that I’m debating over before I start production on the new site.

One sidebar or two sidebars? I currently enjoy having two sidebars, but with the addition of pages that will be implemented into the blog thanks to that function with Wordpress, will needing all that space to organize oneself be necessary? We might be able to do away with the author profiles that are currently on the left sidebar altogether by substituting them with an ‘About Me’ page for each author – maybe even adding a separate navigation bar for the authors. Will a lot of the features of the sidebars even be needed? Statistics? No – Wordpress has a widget that can handle that. Shoutbox? No – getting rid of that in the future site (to promote commenting). ‘Ask The Author’? No – this feature will either get a total overhaul or be completely removed. Blog Spotlight? Yes – even though it was only changed twice since the summer of 2007, I’m hoping that a simple PHP or Javascript script can add new content each time the page is refreshed, making this feature fresh and useful. ‘Author of the Month’? Maybe – however this feature may not be implemented into Broken Typos at first; even if it was, it would probably get a small spot on the sidebar with a page mostly devoted to the feature. Affiliate section? No – this section will be totally extinct on the new website; even if it exists, a page will be enough to get the job done. So in conclusion, we need a sidebar for: an ad or two (money is needed to pay for the host), recent comments, calendar, recent entries, archives, possibly collapsible author profiles, ‘Blog Spotlight’, etc. The question remains: one sidebar or two?

Wordpress is overwhelming in the fact that I’m used to dealing with only HTML and CSS, but Wordpress forces one to work with XHTML, CSS, and PHP. Actually, the majority of the template is coded with PHP. Therefore, one must understand how the code functions, what its uses are, its limits, and how it’ll alter your site. I particularly dislike the ‘if’ statements. Like – if no posts are found, then it’ll display this message. Sure, it’s handy, but I’m just intimidated by the complexity of what I’m facing. Therefore, if I create a homemade theme, do not expect it to be the best you’ll ever see. It’ll be two or three boxes with a logo, background filled with ‘broken’ typos, and bam, I’m done. Yes, it will be more complex than that, but that’s just the general picture. It will be more stylish than Buddy Foote’s Blog v.2, though. Also, we will be abandoning the white-text-on-black-background color scheme that has been plaguing Buddy Foote’s Blog v.2 ever since its creation on July 24, 2005 (yes, the blog’s birthday is in three days). Instead, the blog will have black-text-on-white-background.

To the right here is a little preview of the background that will be used on the new site. Do not fear – a solid white background will be used on the sidebars and main content area to make it easier to read. Also, I’m hoping to achieve a modern design by the use of borders alone surrounding the content areas. Another problem is that I don’t know what to do in terms of a banner for the site.

That’s all I’ll discuss for now. Yet again, please answer the question: one or two sidebars?

Smores Anyone?

So...here I am. It's sad how quiet the blog seems to be. I still care about it though. I care about so many things. I may even care way too much. That can be a problem, unfortunately. Attachment is not always the best, especially when you don't have a single smidge of a clue what is coming next. But will I stop caring? Do I even want to? Can you imagine how hard it is if you had to though?

I started writing a blog twice in the past, er, I don't know, week and a half? Each time I stopped after barely a few lines. I'd start writing in a moment when I felt a certain way, so looking at those 'rough drafts' now is interesting. A lot has happened since I last wrote, fun things. I'm enjoying my summer very much. However, I feel a piece is missing. A piece I am not even sure whether or not I want to add to the puzzle. That is what can be so frustrating. When you have this puzzle piece, sitting there, all odd and pokey-shaped, and you are just looking at it, pondering whether it is the right time to add it to your puzzle. You have to wait until the right moment, naturally. You can't go adding that puzzle piece before it has the other perfect piece to fit with.

I love summer, I absolutely do. It is so refreshing and the weather is more than gorgeous. I had a really nice 4th of July with people I feel I can rely on during any time. We spent the day at a nearby lake, complete with a boat ride, smores, and fireworks; your traditional fourth. Then we made sure it became very nontraditional from the norm and very "us" with staying up late in our "second home", going on the paper route, and out to eat. =) A few days later I stayed over with my close friend in her lake cottage. I had been there only one time before. It is incredibly adorable; the perfect getaway. We had a great time! Paddle boating around the entire lake, swimming, bike riding, basketball, late night walks, music, board games, and smores made the list of some top activities. =) She, and another friend there, also got me interested in a new TV show called "The Secret Life of the American Teenager." We watched the second episode while I was there, and I admit it caught my interest. It's pretty good, and today I watched the first episode, the one I missed, online. It's about a teenage girl and some other characters from her high school. The central idea focuses on this teenage girl, Amy, who is portrayed as a really "good girl", in the band, good friends etc, yet she finds out she is pregnant after a first-time accident. I think the story and the characters are pretty relevant to your "american teens." I'd say it's worth a watch. :)

I've mentioned smores about twice in that last paragraph. Therefore I'm mentioning them again because they are really great! :P I used to not like smores very much, in fact I probably avoided eating them altogether when at a campfire or some sort of event. I think I mainly just ate the marshmallows. This summer is very different though. I believe I've eaten smores at just about every outing/event I've been to this summer. xD And each time I enjoy them all the more. Haha, I know this paragraph is random at best, but I thought I'd share why this entry's title will be dedicated to such a tasty summer treat. =)

One last important thing I think is worth mentioning is that I finally felt ready to take my driving permit test. I went today and passed it. =) I've been more than sixteen, (seventeen..nearing eighteen), for months now but I honestly had no care previously to learn to drive. It was sort of a dilemma. I'm sure some past blog posts will demonstrate such. I've driven before, two very different vehicles in size, each making me feel wary of driving altogether at the time. I am extremely pleased I waited the length of time I did though. There was certainly no rush in my book. I was initially planning to go right after school ended last month, but I delayed reading the book which when I did start took me some time to feel prepared with. :P However, I feel quite accomplished with having finally taken and passed the test. I'm looking forward to "officially" beginning the process of learning how to drive. I'm sure it will come with a series of interesting stories to tell that I hope this blog will welcome with open arms. ;]

Until next time, syanara. ♥

Discotech

I was reminded that I haven't written a blog in a little while, and I certainly agree so I really feel like writing one right now. :) I'm having a nice summer, not anything extraordinary going on currently. It seems I've fallen into a pattern though. I'll be home for a few lazy days where I spend a lot of time outside, and then I'll go away for a few days to friends' houses or somewhere random. =P I have been playing a whole lot of volleyball it seems. I liked the game before, but now I enjoy it even more. I am really looking forward to going on vacation in August though. I don't want to rush through July or anything, but I absolutely cannot wait to go to the beach. It was all I was thinking about today. Just the whole atmosphere is exhilarating down there, and I am a huge swim and surf fan so I can't wait to do those things every day. :) The 4th of July is coming up and that may actually be one of my favorite holidays lately. xD This weekend will fit right in with my "pattern" of going away for a few days. ;]

I was watching television last night and started to feel pretty angry about the gas prices. I know, pretty random, but it was absolutely frustrating me. xD I was sitting there trying to make sense of the situation of our country. Maybe most people don't spend time dwelling on the subject, and I rarely do either but sometimes it catches my attention for awhile and instills some worry in me. The news reporter was explaining how cheap gas is in other countries, even Mexico, which charges like two dollars or less. Some countries charge twelve cents. Can you imagine? =P I understand those countries can supply themselves, but then I get frustrated over why the US ever decided to rely so much on other people. -sigh- The news story continued with showing how American people who live near the Mexican border drive into Mexico to purchase their gas, and sometimes have so much change left over they can go and eat a taco while they are down there. Hey, who can blame them. Too bad we live so far, hah.

Anyway, I've finally found some new music to listen to! I was growing incredibly bored of my 2000+ songs on iTunes [don't roll your eyes] so I proceeded to do a playlist search on the web. xD I went to projectplaylist.com originally, but imeem.com proved to be a better source. -bobs head- Yeaaaah it was great!;] The title of this blog in fact is the name of one fun song I found to enjoy.

I'm going to be on my way now, have a sunny day!

What to do…

Hmm…I don't know where this is going to go, I don't even know if this will be published. I'm just going to ramble on and see if I like it…So I've been contemplating on whether or not I want to continue with this blog, reasons that I don't even know. And the reasons I am aware of I am not going to say, as I will most likely get ridiculed anyway. So for those of you that never liked me in the first place, then YAY you can throw one hell of a party, bust open a piñata of me while you are at it. For those of you who did like me, well sorry I guess? IM me and I'll type you your own personalized Matomatic IM entry. WOOT wont you be showing that off to the kids in school? Once school starts -.-…It is not positive yet so do NOT get up and bar the door...

VA Beach. It was an OK vacation, probably the worst vacation to VA Beach though =/. Not that it was bad, just the other ones were better. I missed, um, "people"…Um the weather was perfect, it did not rain on us while we were at the beach so that is good =)…All I have to say is FUCK North Carolina! Their fucking mountains were on fire and of course the wind had to blow directly at VA Beach, meaning the old ladies were wearing smoky perfume, and if that were the case there were giant bingo tournaments going on every single block…Ok yeah if you understood a damn word I just said in that last sentence then HIGHFIVE.

Everything down there was expensive, EXCEPT GAS. Gasoline was $3.83 at one station! But the necklaces I shop for were approximately $6.00 each! Let us just say it is pretty easy to steal things if you wanted…WHO SAID IT!? You better not be assuming anything, because when you assume…yeah you know how it goes.

Oh, something else I want to fuck…NOT like that…FUCK the air force. Of course there has to be a freaking naval base, air force base, and all that good stuff right next to VA Beach. I don't have a problem with the navy, since they don't bother me. But the damn air force bothers me. The jet planes constantly fly over your head from about 5 PM to 10 PM. And trust me, it is extremely loud, so loud your ears start to bleed o.o…

I am done typing for now, who knows for how long. It has been a fun journey on Foote's Funky Boat Ride if I decide to disembark on this island. Farewell mine companions, and good luck!

Colleges Look Here!

I've been practicing my admission essay for college. I'm not much of an essayist, but I'm quite pleased with the outcome of this scraped piece of work.

" You should accept me to your educational facility because I'm not racist, I'm not a Nazi, I'm not homophobic, I'm not a Republican, I'm not a communist, I'm not an evil dictator, I'm not a druggie, I'm not emo, I'm not drunk, I'm not a diabetic, I'm not lame, I'm not a transsexual cross dresser, I'm not a knot, I'm not a deviant, I'm not a pedophile, I'm not allergic to bee stings, I'm not pregnant, I'm not a jock, I'm not a hypocrite, I'm not Casper the Friendly Ghost, I'm not a motorcyclist, I'm not a blogger, I'm not a politician, I'm not dirty, I'm not cooperative in the classroom, I'm not passing elementary school, I'm not a gamer (as we all know that leads to violence), I'm not here right now so leave a message after the beep, I'm not attuned for Karazhan, I'm not a drinker of grapefruit beverages, I'm not the exorcist, I'm not an illegal alien, I'm not listening to Numa Numa, I'm not a sexist, I'm not tying knots in my shoelaces, I'm not repetitive, I'm not William Shakespeare, I'm not a writer, I'm not human, I'm not a woman, I'm not a troublemaker, I'm not talkative, I'm not contagious, I'm not a movie star, I'm not a band member of Weezer, and I'm definitely not doubting that you actually wasted all of your free time reading this pointless nonexistent college admission essay. Okay so accept me, fool. "

Thank you. If you actually read that, then you better seek medical assistance. Fast!

Have a good one.

Tramp

See that little guy to the left? Well, this guy is the reason why my brother and sister-in-law are disallowing my nephew from playing Runescape anymore. Even though one shouldn't play Runescape until at least the age of twelve, the actual material in the game is geared toward a young audience. Harmless, fun, and addicting. A good way to pass the time as well as learn the mechanics of an online gaming world. There must always be a game to introduce a genre, and this is my nephew's introduction to the MMORPG world. My nephew is six, almost seven, and he's about level 47 on the game with a pretty good total level – but he can't play because there's a tramp in the game (that guy to the left). My "smart" sibling and spouse immediately think, "Oh no! Our son is picking up prostitutes on the streets of Varrock! Whatever shall we do?" and with that thought they lay down the law. You can't play this game anymore. That's the worst thing you can ever say to a young kid.

Thanks to an invention known as the dictionary (thank you Samuel Johnson), we can be provided with the following definition of what a tramp is:

• One who travels aimlessly about on foot, doing odd jobs or begging for a living; a vagrant.
  
• A prostitute.
  

Wow! Did you know a single word could have more than one definition? That's critical news to me! And heck, there's even more definitions to the word tramp but we won't include those as it would this entry too excessive.

Jagex, the makers of Runescape, would never dare to put anything sexual into the game. They're too clean and squeaky to even consider that dirty option. Therefore, I'm 99.53% sure we can exclude the latter definition of 'A prostitute'. Let's look at the first definition. I don't see anything faulty with this one. Clearly one can see that the tramp in Runescape is poor due to the clothing he's wearing. Plus one can even smell his odor through the computer if one doesn't have seasonal allergies. He's not only poor (as that's too much of a general word), but one can see that he's probably homeless. And what do most homeless people do: live underneath exit ramps in cardboard boxes and wander around aimlessly on foot looking for food or begging for money. Woah! What just happened? Look at the first definition again:

• One who travels aimlessly about on foot, doing odd jobs or begging for a living; a vagrant.
  

Also, if you don't know what a vagrant is:

• A wanderer who has no established residence or visible means of support.
  

That's another term for a homeless person. By golly! We're getting somewhere here!

The life lesson we learned here today: don't assume things based on your limited knowledge! If I called your female dog a bitch, would you be offended? There's a ton of free dictionaries online as well as software such as WordWeb. Get it, fast, before all your brain cells die and you're crying on Johnson's grave wondering what a dictionary is.

Therefore, we can no longer assume that this NPC on Runescape is a prostitute, but rather just some homeless guy trying to make a living by begging for a few coins. My nephew plays other games, such as Guitar Hero III which is a T-rated game, but he can't play innocent lil' Runescape? 'Look at what ya did, ya bloody tramp! Ya ruined me nephew's gaming experience with the MMORPG genre. Ya should be ashamed of yeself!'

Have a good one.

Teh Foote’s Thoughts #1

I walked out into my yard today to retrieve the recycling bin and found that a new forest of giant blades of some foreign plant has sprouted up around the area of my yard. I named it the Forest of Rye and moved on with my day.

Having a phone on vibrate serves no purpose if you cannot feel it or hear it dance along some surface – including any soft material, like a couch. Make sure you put your phone in a pocket that has contact with your body. People get angry when you don't answer their calls, and angrier when you use the lame "excuse" that your phone was on vibrate and you didn't know the person on the other line was calling. You should know this as you have "ESP . . . N . . . 2" – quote used by my late English teacher. He's not dead; he's just late to class.

One day I walked downstairs and saw some DVD college course catalog lying on the kitchen table. Sadly, there were no computer-related classes. On the other hand, I was intrigued by a class titled The Joy of Mathematics. I believe it guarantees that I can do mental math as extreme as logarithms. I'm pretty excited about this, especially due to the fact that I can't do '6 + 9' in my head.

Garbage cans stink. Literally.

I was checking my voicemail today and my thought train went like this: no new messages.

I just went to Endless Mountain Movie Theatre, the only privately-owned theatre left in the area, to see the movie Get Smart. Not only was it highly humorous to the point where I wet myself from laughter, but I got a degree in engineering and a minor in business. I'm now a CEO of all things big and beautiful.

I hate broken errata. I do, however, like the synonym. It should be a band name or something. Maybe a blog title?

I'm single. If there was a double of me, I would have a twin.

Is there a way to export iPod libraries from the iPod to the computer? This has been bothering me lately. The computer that hosted all of my music was wiped a while ago, and since then, my iPod is filled with outdated songs that I would like to add more tunes to. As it's 80 GB, there's no point to wiping the disk space on the iPod itself. Damn Apple – tricky bastards.

I'm out!

Moving to Wordpress

There are big plans going on for the future of Buddy Foote's Blog v.2. What big plans, you ask? I can't give away a lot of details in order to maintain the security of such a big move, but I can guarantee you a little morsel of a fact: the blog is moving from Blogger to Wordpress. I guess I can also give away another fact. The blog's name is changing. The URL, http://buddyfoote.com, will only be around for another year whereas the new name of the blog will also have its own domain name. The former domain name will just redirect to the new site. On the other hand, this Blogger page will just feature a big redirect to the new site.

Why are we moving? Wordpress offers a lot of features that I'm highly excited over. Oh, man! I should have mentioned that we're not moving to the . . . how can I word this – 'free' Wordpress but rather we're getting the script and installing it on a web host! Yes, this blog will no longer be hosted on a free service! However, I wish we had enough income coming in from ads to supply the demand from the host, but I'm very happy with the new Project Wonderful ads and the great advertisers who are being hosted on this blog. It's better getting at least a penny a day than three cents a month (sorry Adbrite; either I wasn't using you right or you were abusing me). My concerns, at the moment, are: A) finding a very reliable, dependent, friendly, yet not very expensive web host [I'm thinking along the lines of about seven dollars a month] and B) getting the money in the first place. Coughing to the blog authors – donations will be accepted with glee. I can't begin the tedious process of creating a new layout without having the website host to work on. I am, however, studying a book I got from Borders one night when I went out with my cousin, his girlfriend, and a friend. The book, which cost $37 and put a large gap in my pocket, is The Essential Guide to CSS and HTML Web Design. I would recommend this book for any web designer out there, no matter how novice or experienced you are. Better yet; find it at your local book store and make sure you have a pen and notepad in your pocket to take notes. Would a store mind you doing that? By using this book, I shall create a professional layout that will send even the nuns to hell. I don't know why I said that. Let's pretend I didn't.

My biggest fear in concern to being hosted on a web host is their whole shared server ordeal. Most web hosts guarantee so many resources for such a low price, but God forbid if you come within a few miles from the limits that they guaranteed you, they can simply terminate your account and go on with their day. I'm sorry but I don't want to lose a very good and long-running website because some company went against their guarantees. I may actually have to read the 'ToS' for each host before I pick the one I want. Also, I want any downtimes to be a minimum. I honestly don't understand how Blogger, for example, can host so many free blogs, get no revenue from it, and yet be a very, very good host. Did I mention free? Whereas you have hosts out there eating seven dollars from your pocket or paycheck monthly and they offer worst services. 110MB.com offers amazing service for their free customers! Yet I hear horror stories about BlueHost! Why, dear Lord, why?

I am nervous about the move. However, I want to major in computer science and I believe such an experience would grant me skills I need to succeed in my major. If anybody is out there actually taking the time to read this, I have a few questions that I would like you to please answer via comment:

• What webhost do you recommend for a hosted Wordpress blog? Please take into consideration the monthly payments, disk space, bandwidth, free script installations, etc. (Personally, I have been eyeing up Host Monster)
  
• Do you recommend the move from Blogger to Wordpress? I'm going to no matter what you say, but I'd like to hear some experienced or biased opinions.
  
• Should I stick with a dark layout since this blog had since July 2005 or move to a more 'pure' white-based layout (I'm preferring the white layout, at the moment).
  

Also, I would like to mention (as I got off-subject when I wanted to bring this up before) that I'm doing the move not because I have anything against Blogger, but rather because I want the freedom of using external style sheets, PHP, integrated forums and IRC chat, etc. I want to grant the blog authors such things as their own 'About Me' page fully customized by them that will act as their 'MySpace'. Okay, I'm giving out too much information. Photo gallery? Who said it!? A PHP script that will display different elements of the abused and never-used 'Blog Spotlight' section? Who said it!? Some form of currency that the authors gain based on the content of their blog posts? Yet again, who the hell said it!? Not only will the new blog offer interactive content for the user, but will also give something back to the blog authors who endured the hard times throughout the lifespan of this blog. I say 'thank you' to them. You will be rewarded.

I'm going to go off on an adventure to Candy Mountain now. Please consider those questions I asked, and if you're feeling very enthused, maybe add some more personal input about the topic. Also, I'll let you speculate on what the new blog title could be. We do have it picked, but I don't want to give it away just yet. I am very 'stoked', however, about the new renaissance of the blog. We'll soon say goodbye to Buddy Foote's Blog v.2, and hello to ______ _____. Who said it!? Have a good one.

The Moose

right now i am listening via the internet to the morning show on the radio in west virginia that my cousin djs. mondays from 6 - 10 in the morning. heres the link http://u92.wvu.edu/. he plays some crazy stuff. good ol cousin ryan

i find myself slightly confused by all the matt hating going on in the blog. like what did he do? everyones treating him like he ate a bald eagle or something. its probably just the same person insulting him each time. lol grow up. im wondering what to have for breakfast right now. ill probably pick pop tarts or rice crispies. im going to help my girlfriend at 11 (shes moving, but the place shes moving is actually closer sooo... yay!) and i have work tonight from 6 -10 stocking shelves wich MODERATLY SUCKS

lol my cousin just put on some oasis... NICE!!!!

in regards to the new Cute Is What We Aim For album, they released a new video! want it? i got it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jF3MYxSo-es
i just really wish i knew how to embed these videos.

since no one told me which compilation disk to review, im picking Punk Goes Crunk.
punk bands covering rap songs
heres the track listing, i will work on the review the rest of the day

Set Your Goals - "Put Yo Hood Up" (Lil Jon) (4:59)
Say Anything - "Got Your Money" (Ol' Dirty Bastard) (4:15)
The Secret Handshake - "I Wish" (Skee-Lo) (2:52)
Forever the Sickest Kids - "Men in Black" (Will Smith) (3:05)
My American Heart - "California Love" (2Pac) (4:16)
The Maine - "I Wanna Love You" (Akon) (3:03)
Emanuel - "Kryptonite (I'm on It)" (Purple Ribbon All-Stars) (4:30)
Person L - "The Seed" (The Roots) (4:22)
The Devil Wears Prada - "Still Fly" (Big Tymers) (4:55)
All Time Low - "Umbrella" (Rihanna) (3:49)
Scary Kids Scaring Kids - "Notorious Thugs" (Bone Thugs and Harmony) (7:23)
The Escape Frame - "Nuthin' but a "G" Thang" (Dr. Dre) (3:30)
Hot Rod Circuit - "Gin and Juice" (Snoop Dogg) (3:44)
Lorene Drive - "Hey Ya!" (OutKast) (4:24)
New Found Glory - "Tennessee" (Arrested Development) (4:05)
Just Surrender - "Sexy Back" (Justin Timberlake)


and please lay off blog bashing.